i never know when i'm done.
2011-05-01 -- 11:22 p.m.

i would take the feeling of heartbreak one thousand times over the feeling of this level of guilt.

it'll eat a little girl up.

we stood in a garage for a few hours last night and watched a storm, we talked and laughed. i haven't been over there since october, before halloween. it's all innocent, friendly. cross my heart.

when max had finally whimpered from behind the door long enough, i went in for a minute to throw my arms around the dog i still see as a precious puppy. a puppy who only seemed to be content when napping in my arms while i sat on top of a pool table in the basement his first few days with cole. as i was trying to get max to stop blocking the door so that i could leave cole says, "it's okay max, let her go. maybe since she's seen how much we missed her, she'll come back."

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