wrap up.
2012-05-11 -- 1:14 a.m.

i'm not all that scared about my future, maybe that's because i have yet another semester to figure it all out. but i doubt i'll be freaking out at the end of december either.

i've never been one with lots of goals and plans. after all, i was the one who never even wanted to go to college to begin with. i'm glad i did though, because i've grown into this girl and laid the old girl i was to rest.

so many of my views have changes over the past year, maybe even the past few months. this semester was so worthless and my job is so mundane, but i've done and accomplished things to be proud of.

all i've ever wanted was to matter. and one day i will discover a real way to do this.

right now all i want to do is cover my body with tattoos (once you get one, you'll want another), bake in the sun (even though you can't do both! wah!), drink inappropriate amounts of alcohol, read books cover to cover, and watch seasons upon seasons of television shows.

i'm finishing my last project of the semester, even though i've claimed i was done. i wasn't going to even turn it in, but i did not do as well on the final as i had hoped. FUCK MULTIPLE CHOICE. but anyways, i'm finishing this only because of that and because i have a crush on my professor even though he's old and married and i'd like for him to remember me as being brilliant and not a lazy.

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