fuck me
2013-03-20 -- 8:17 p.m.

you know how much i care about anything i am doing in my life right now?

i don't.

you know what i care about? i care about what people's hair looks like and what celebrities wear. i like to do braids and try new shampoos and i could watch the god damn e network for days. i also care about children and teaching, i care about a child's perspective and i want to love and play with every single one i come into contact with. i want to help them learn to count and cheer them on when they tie their shoes for the first time.

i could have been a beautician or a kindergarten teacher. but instead i was too smart, i had this idea that i had to do something grand. so, now i'm working on my masters in a field where you can't really do anything particularly "grand" unless you go to school for five million years and acquire five million dollars of debt. i can tell you all about laws, criminal processes, and societal institutions. i keep up with politics and world affairs. i am a fucking intelligent person!

nonetheless, i am an idiot and i hate my life.

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